A Moment of Bitchy Indulgence Thanks to Facebook

I was doing a little late-night Facebook stalking of the guy I used to date. Guess what I came across?! His new chica. I was a little taken aback. You really never want to be confronted with a person you've been with having moved on, but it is inevitable. I saw a girl post something really cheery on his wall. My first thought was that her comment seemed "young". Then I looked at her profile pic, it was of the two of them. There wasn't any kissing or hugging or anything, but what person uses a pic of them and another guy(or girl) if they aren't into them? Exactly. Good for him.

I considered inviting him to my birthday shenanigans. I thought I was being petty inviting all of our mutual friends and not him. Something told me to look at his page before I sent the invite. I'm glad I did...

Its best this way. I start a new year next week and I don't need to bring in left overs from the last.

Nik

Just One of those Days

Ugh! This day started off with me waking up super early and it was down hill from there. It is very rare that I feel like Scrooge, but today just took the cake. I was(am) in Supreme Restless Bitch mode. I'm feeling stuck and I don't know why. I could sit and analysis my behavior, but I just don't give a fuck. So instead I'm going to unload a few of my pet peeves.

1. Why do people say, "I hate to bother you" or "I'm sorry to bother you" ? If they were sorry or hated to do it, then they wouldn't. It's just a ploy to mollify(I think I used the word correctly) me while I give you what you want. It is so transparent. Stop beating around the bush and ask me for what you want.

2. Why do we(young people) have to sit and over analyze everything nuance of an encounter with the object of our affect instead of doing what's necessary to make things that you want to happen? We're supposed to be fearless, but it seems that we all suffer from a bad case of bitchassness. I'm guilty of this too. So I declare that moving forward, I will drop my bitchassness and start to be the bad ass bitch I know I can be. Who's with me?

3. Why doe we do things that we don't want to just to appease another? Be it friend, loved one or lover? This is the time of out lives to be selfish, within reason of course. Let's live it up and if the appeasement isn't utilitarian-fuck it.

4. Why is it so easy for our friends to have the answer to our problems, but we don't see it? Thus we spend hours crying into our drinks while they try to make us see what they see so clearly. Lesson is to know thyself.

Thanks for letting me get this off my chest. I feel so much better.

Yay for blogging by email!!!


Nik