do not pass go. do not collect $200.

this afternoon, while contemplating the current state of my love life (or sex life, more accurately), i made a couple of very interesting observations. yes, it's true. i have yet again realized to a deeper extent my own retardation, coupled of course with the innate douchdome of the male gender. let me explain....

i am not, by default, a game player. i'm just not. it never suited me as i have very limited patience, and no strategic skills whatsoever when it comes to dating. however, this afternoon, i found myself dismissing the idea of calling either of my gentlemen "friends" on the basis of the FACT that men are more likely to do what you want when they call you. just a few days ago, actually, a girlfriend and i were discussing the interesting observation that men will do ANYTHING for the women in their life as long as IT IS THEIR IDEA. thus, as i placed my unused phone back into my purse, i was stunned by the fact that i was, indeed, playing a game. me? a game player? who knew? and then it dawned on me that i am not a game player at all. i am still the up-front person i've always been... i've just been forced unknowingly into the game by the men in my life.

untrue you say? well, then consider this: men love games. although they will all adamantly deny the idea that they play games in relationships (because that is, of course, the woman's role, isn't it? hahah), we all know that most men are innately drawn to sports, rivalry, competition, and anything that involves "winning". let's blame it on the "hunter" gene, if we must.... but, however you want to look at it, no matter how society has evolved, the "i am man. i am strong. i am the winner!" mentality has yet to change. and so i find myself, waiting, without a phone call, yeilding to the douchdome of man....

the ridiculous part of it all, of course, is that in realizing the nature of this relationship, i have become better at "playing" than my male counterparts who have unwittingly forced me into this game in the first place. so, i'll play. and i'll wait for their call...but, then, it will be my turn. ;)